Continued from the previous post:

Everyone knows about *our* (really just mine, but I like to share) infertility. At first we were quiet about it, after the 2nd miscarriage only close friends knew or people that had asked me what was wrong. I'm not very good at keeping secrets, even if it is something about me. If you know me in real life you would know what a loud mouth I am. I'm always the center of attention and glad to be there. I feel like I rule my school and talk to everyone, even if they don't know me yet. I needed to be loud about my infertility so it wouldn't just fester up like a bad splinter. I tend to hang out with the older people in my classes just because I'm an old junior (when you think about 19 year olds being juniors.) They always ask if we have kids and depending on the circumstance, I tell them then and there why we don't have kids. I almost feel like it's helped me find my voice in this big world and helped define me as a person.

Happy ICLW!

ICLW

I'm a blogging slacker. Since starting my new summer job on June 2 I haven't had ANY time for any extra anything.

For those ICLWers tuning in.

My name is Ellen.

I have MTHFR, a genetic mutation that fucks my blood up. I also have PCOS, a stupid "syndrome" that fucks up my ovaries. And newly this week, I have been diagnosed with POF, Premature Ovarian Failure. It seems my reproductive health can all be described with abbreviations. I am learning to live with these "failures" (seriously, they couldn't come up with a better word?)

I am married to a wonderful man, William. He is truly my strength through all this. Recently, William and I have decided to live child-free instead of working towards adoption or surrogacy. Some might think this is selfish, but those people can blow me. I commend people for adopting. It takes a very special family to adopt. I don't necessarily think I have to explain and I probably won't be able to do so very well. I don't have the will to go through more heartbreak if I can help it. The miscarriages and infertility took me to a place that I don't want to be ever again. It hurt our marriage and my friendships, among other things. We are finally able to be "newlyweds" for the first time and it is great. We are getting our passports in the coming weeks and planning on traveling as often as we can.

Time to brag about my puppy. Her name is Lily. She's 5 months and growing so quickly, she's almost 3 1/2 pounds! She's a long haired chihuahua and the light of my life :) If you want to see some pictures check out my other posts or facebook me (ellen moore.)

Well I think I rambled my little heart out. If you have any questions feel free to ask! Oh yeah, and if you are easily offended or don't like the word fuck, my blog might not be the one for you! Thanks for stopping by!

ICLW May

Welcome IComLeavWe'ers!

• My name is Ellen.
• I'm almost 23.
• I'm addicted to all things twitter.
• My husband is William.
• He's almost 27 (shh don't tell him I told you.)
• I have PCOS and MTHFR.
• We recently decided to quit TTC and I went off all my meds (prometrium, femara, estradiol, BA, Folic Acid, metformin.)
• I've had a few miscarriages and they still sting.
• I pretty much can't stand pg people who haven't stuggled with IF (yes I'm still bitter and I don't care what anyone thinks about it.)
• I'm currently reading Silent Sorority, which I recommend to everyone, IF or not.
• My car got broken into yesterday and I'm still effing pissed. The stole my gps stuff, mp3 player and all it's accesories, 3 pairs of sunglasses, an old cell phone, phone chargers for every cell phone I've had in the past 2 years, and some shoes.
• I have a 4 month old long haired chihuahua named Lily.
• Lily has more dresses than I do.
• I'm a nanny and work part time for a medical staffing company in the NICU, PICU, Peds and SAU.
• I'm going to school to be a pharmacist and I love the shit out of Chemistry.
• I've got about 5 1/2 years of school left.

I can't wait to "meet" you all! Drop me a line if you are living child-free not by choice and have given up TTC. I'd love to connect with you!