Wednesday, March 18, 2009

CD 2 - I've Been Lapped

I've been lapped! A girl on my old, old babycenter board who started trying around the same time I did has a 5 month old and decided to start trying for #2...BFP for her. WTH?! She's literally going to have two... hell, maybe three babies by the time I get one, or give up.

Ultrasound went fine today. No need for surgery. I should be happier but I'm still having a shitty day! One year ago today I found out I was pregnant. And today, like many days, I get to look at an empty ultrasound screen while my doctor checks out my pcos ovaries. Fun stuff.

I finally made it the post office afterwards so I could send my socks! I can't wait to get mine :) I mailed a couple little cards to my mom and other people. So check your mail and maybe you'll get socks from me!

Had a wee bit of a break down last night. Poor William. He has to deal with so much bullshit from me. Questioning God, reasons for infertility and why it would happen to us. I also felt bad because now his family knows about MY problems.

Stopped by the liquor store and got a wonderfully large bottle of Relax Riesling. YUM!


Kymberli said...

I am SO GLAD that you won't need surgery. I know what its like to have those gawdawful never-ending cycles and I also need either BCPs or prometrium/provera to stay regular. I needed the provera to jump-start each one of my TTC cyles (at least once we figured out that I was anovulatory).

I HATE that lapped feeling. I even have that feeling going on now in the surrogacy situation. *sigh*

Katie said...

Awww Ellen I'm sorry you had a breakdown :( You can call or text me anytime that you need to! I hope you enjoyed your wine and I'm sorry about the girl lapping you. It isn't fair! Tell William's family to shove it. From me.


On My Mind 24/7 said...

I too had friends I met on babycenter, and one girl had two before I ever found out I was pregnant. I'm sorry you are feeling down. I can't believe your DH's family is so blunt in blaming you, that's really insensitive and rude. I hope the next few days are better for you.